Hey Everyone !
Voila!
Feels nice to be back. Long time...
At last this frequent blogger gets some time , time for introspection...
Well , this time live from the beautiful city of Mysore(I'm afraid I've seen much of it at this point).
Anyways , the weather is awesome...Cloudy Days , Nice cool breeze and 'pleasantly warming sunshine' in mid of Jun , well that's something in the era of Global Warming.
Tantamount to this is the Campus. No , No..Don't take it in the wrong way! I 'have' completed my graduation successfully with 8.2 CGPA(:-))
and even entered the next course of my life.
and this course starts at Infosys Ltd. Mysore - My first employer.
Lots of questions , very less answers...lots of thoughts and so much of thinking...
(Ahh! don't get confused , that's normal with me)
I must say sorry for writing my experiences and sharing my thoughts here at blogger but actually I'm not sorry because I've got this space from Google , and neither anyone is forced to go through it.
It's like a "free ki advice".
So , I guess there's no problem in using blogger as your personal(well not totally personal) diary , especially when there are not many followers to intervene your personal space. So now we have an understanding.
Talking about my thoughts and feeling these days..I'm feeling...feeling...Ahh! I wish somethings could be expressed in words...(and somethings could be written at Blogger).
So , about Infy..Well great place to be , awesome campus coupled with totally harmonious weather and what not.
but the hell of the irony is that... I'm not comfortable...I'm not happy...Ya! hard to accept but that's the truth. It's not what I wanted.
Took me one whole week to be fine with this environment.
I wonder , it's so hard... a person is tested at every moment and the level is a monotonously increasing function in terms of difficulties.
It's a mental game...
I don't know what I'm writing right now...but my mind is not stable and it will not be till I achieve what I want...
It's hard for me to pass this phase...my every cell(of the body) is in total disagreement , totally uncomfortable to be here and it's very hard for my mind to control things.
This place has everything one can dream of but still I don't know why I am feeling like this.
Lots of distractions here , very hard to focus. But as fighter i am doing my bit.
Life has undergone positive changes in these few days.
waking up at 6 o'clock and reaching to classes before time was a bygone story in my life for four years but it's happening again.
It's very hard to concentrate , to focus on the objectives , I've set for myself..
Sometimes I am totally lost but then I am able to find a way.
I have to walk this way now , and regretting things will only make my journey slower.
At 21 years of age one can expect many chances from life , only from now on I'll be serious about them. I've to do justice to myself.
I guess I should stop now. Reading this sometime later would only tell me how confused I was , like lost in a jungle...
but aren't we all?? lost in a jungle...in search of what...
that needs to be figured out and important is that you figure it out early , early enough to live that dream.
Lots of things still to be figured out for me.
Focus is the key.
I pray to God to give me that strength to keep in my mind those goals , those objectives that I set and not fall prey to the circumstantial distractions.
I promise to myself that I will focus.
I will concentrate and save myself from all other distractions.
Not feeling right
and so signing off !
Siddharth
