The Last Vacations ???

Once upon time , a long time ago a promise was made but eventually it was broken by somebody.
That somebody, a follower of the deadly lethargic forces (thus, a true Indian !) , is ...
Is??
Well , you don't need to be a diehard suspense- thriller fan for making that somebody out.
Obviously that's me and I , still , am not able to be regular in updating this place , which I promised long ago.

I guess there's no point worrying about that now because , given I am an engineer , it's hard to find time for such activities.(Now , If you feel this reason hard to believe then let me tell you , it is indeed normal to feel so because I bluffed you just now.)
Actually, the real reason is that I don't want to degrade the quality of my blog postings by writing the daily (not so much happening) happenings. Instead, it is better to cover up the gist of it. So , now it’s time to get over with the explanation part which is meant mainly for my personal satisfaction as there are not so many avid readers of my blog and I am also in no mood to use my marketing skills over this issue. It won’t feel good if anybody accuses me of robbing their valuable time by making them to read this as I know not many will wish to dedicate time for 'things' , things which I keep pondering over.
Though I believe , there is a stage when a man(and a woman also...no wait! , something's wrong , okey ‘some woman’ suits better...) does question 'things' and tries to find answers to them.

So, I get this wonderful chance to meet my all imagined readers from my home. It feels great to be at home and it feels great to be in Delhi.(No, please, not for that particular reason!)
Seriously Delhi rocks ! and being here in my favorite season of the year feels awesome. Lately , I have had some problems with 'Dilli ki sardi'.I guess four years being far away has jammed my immune system so that when I was coming in the train (without any blanket , bedsheet , and in a single sweater) the armed forces of cold attacked me. Many posts got captured. Perhaps my ears & bronchioles are captured even now. Though my forces have started picking power as they are now fed with healthy , spicy and tasty home cooked food. Steaming momos and hot soups do serve a helping hand.
So talking about home , it is really convenient when you know where to find what. There is every place , every street food (chat , golgappa , momos...) for your every mood. That’s why we all feel blessed at home. All hometowns are so comforting to their respective natives.
But still , Delhi does Rocks ! such a happening city it is.

On Last Sunday , I finished two more MBA entrances with only the last one remaining now. It excites me a lot when I think what is going to happen after four months. Last semester of my Btech. I feel nostalgic but also all the more enthusiastic about future. It is going to be a new world again , just like four years ago but this time it is the real battlefield , not just a practice arena where your mistakes are forgiven at no cost. I don't know if they are in this real world or not , have to wait for that but I think mistakes are not forgiven anywhere without paying the costs. It just depends on the rules of the game to determine how big the crime is.

In my younger days(When I was a little kid I mean..) , talking to your teacher in a loud voice , criticizing them would have easily attracted a slap or two from him/her with a guarantee of good beating back at the home from the parents as well.
Now, I see people doing it easily. Though we must criticize the flaws in the system in a mannered way but I see students taking it to another level, for instance In Delhi(perhaps in whole country now) , there is a law that a teacher cannot physically harm you , can't slap you in another words. I remember an incident from my class X when some students were making nuisance in the class , when the teacher came to them to stop them they started insulting, even abusing him. He was exasperated by them. I could see the intense anger in his eyes , his jaws tightly clinched together yet he was just staring on the chuckling students helplessly.
I was shocked , it was the first of its kind incident for me and that day I realized that maybe 'Guru' had become obsolete in the dictionaries of man.
For us teacher is a person who takes money , is forced to take classes , is a duffer who was unsuccessful at other career options and so chose to be a teacher. People go there , take notes , abuse him after the class (even if the content he was teaching was boring itself).
Do we ever wonder that he is a teacher - he 'teaches' us.
Now I know that you are having an ocean of words waiting right there at your tongue's tip and so let me clarify that I’m not being a partisan. I know the other side also , you don't get dronacharya everywhere but you even don't get Eklavya everywhere and I bet you may not find 1 eklavya in 10000 students but a dronacharya will be there in 100 teachers.
So , it is quite easy to go on inventing essays of abusive statements for your grey haired , large spectacled professors but just try to think how difficult is their job to satisfy the doubts of ever curious modern population. Ask anyone out there about their ambitions and you already know , whether a boy or a girl , you'll not find the word teacher in their ambitions.
We should not try to see Drona in every teacher , because the true worth of a teacher can be recognized by a true student only.

Well , it is strange , right now I'm flowing with thoughts and can discuss this issue , infact debate over it (not supporting any particular side).
So , this is how strange things get part of my blog. I write anything when im in the mood and so writing the blog in that perfect state of mind makes me less regular with blogging. This spontaneous quality of mine can help me do wonders rather this is not spontaneous I must say , somewhere at the back of mind , I do muse over this kind of stuff.

Getting back to home talks , it is quite boring at times not having all those Masala talks with your friends.
Movies serve a good method of time pass along with the master creation of Mr. Zuckerberg but still it sucks to get wired in for such long periods.
This is awkward , while my friends , like always , some don't disturb me at all(Engineers never take pains...) and some can't be disturbed by me(constraints , you see...). ;-)
Well , there are benefits of having 6 exams in 6 days. though there are the dis-ads. also but I would hide them deep inside me right now , to make a few people feel a bit jealous.

In a day or two , placement activities will begin in the campus. Farewell time approaching, Aww! I'll miss my friends but fine lets enjoy our last sem to the fullest , I know we are gonna rock in the coming months.
May be these 15 days are my last vacations for which there is no issue of salary deduction.
Maybe ! Who knows whats next !

Signing Off
for today

Siddharth , on the way of being
Siddhartha

'Picture Abhi Baaki Hai Mere Dost'...

Whew! Long time Huh ? So , at last I'm back with my favorite pastime - observing , analyzing and deciphering life.
Just recently talking to someone i realized ' Oh Man! - you have a blog and you promised to be regular but it turned out that I too got too involved in the 'Moh- Maya' tasks of this world.
Well owing to a few good deeds , I might have done sometime back (these days I'm the paapi no. 1)and obviously the to the good wishes of family & friends , I got my dream Run - Tour de Japan.
Quite a nice experience , it just gave a new dimension to my thoughts ,damn disciplined people , huge respect for them , with this trip I made a promise to myself that my next turn would be with my family and that too ASAP.

Soon after coming back I was greeted with a minor accident (with God's grace my mother's new pleasure got only a few scratches) , learnt that speeding and overtaking can 'sometimes' be injurious to driving and then once again started - my hot affair with a femme-fatale , so what if that female was named Anopheles and she gifted me 'Plasmodium Vivax ' , nevertheless it just cost me to smell some high dose medicines with a loss of few kilos(this was positive actually - saved me from being a laughter subject at the hostel).

Then happened a Deja-Vu , which has been happening since the first sem. , it occurred to me that the current semester was the heaviest loaded one , so it was actually , but who cares ? neither do teachers nor do I.
Subsequently I broke my own and made new records of bun-'king' with my closest of friends giving a tough competition.
Consequently , after midsems - I was at the 'top' - when viewed normally( in one course) , and when viewed upside down (in two courses) , rest all were average.
Though I'm not so worried about that ,(after all to be a 'Baazigar' , first requisite is to screw few of the papers).

My mind is really perplexed these days...taking all the stress that I can handle so as to be cool at the CAT day.
Meanwhile , Ayodhya , CWG - all passed by. Loved CWG and for Indian media I have only one thing (..|..) , filthy people can't respect anything , they would cut their own head to generate news...I'm not going in the details now (If anyone wishes to debate , contact me personally).
All in all very happy with both the issues , CWG & Ayodhya both went well off. But theres a man I would kill if given a chance , horseshit flows in his veins, that idiot kalmadi , don't how much tax they would deduct from my first salary to make up for what he ate.

Circumstances are such that I don't even have the time to feel the seconds passing by ..Oh ! just remembered I completed 21 this year...officially now I can run and marry someone (definitely female)(sorry but this is the only one special privilege one gets at being 21) but time doesn't even permits this..(moreover there's no one out there) so its all CAT - CAT and meow.
Its very strange that I have managed to wake at 6 o'clock despite sleeping at 2.(dont think that I study , I brush , open the book & then my eyes open at 9 o'clock.)

Well jokes apart , From the heart ,I'm really feeling very lonely this time , luck is not going , just cant feel happiness around me , that Lively aura of me is missing somewhere...
I know its a temporary phase ,I'll overcome it 'but' ...this time I have no answer for this 'but'..
Hope things will be fine sooner than later. Seriously in need of an encouragement & damn good inspiration.
Its really absorbing , complexities have increased so have responsibilities , after all its 21 now , I desperately need the way out of this desert , but this time I don't have answers - and even worse I don't have the time to look for them.
Deep down in my mind , I know all this is just a starting , a trailer b'coz 'Picture Abhi Baaki Mere Dost' ...

'I'll Fight Back' and thats what I call the typical Siddharth's attitude.

Signing off
Fighter

Truce

Another semester over.
The battle comes to a truce , though provisionally , but a precious time to rethink your strategies.
Strange I feel when I gaze through the window of past. It feels like just yesterday I came here for the first time , and so soon its going to get over , just another year and I'm through my Graduation.
Wow! I can feel the load of the statement but I think am I ready , do I have worthwhile arsenal to rush to the battle field.
I don't know whats awaiting me there , no one ever knows the future , but the golden strategy is : Hope for the best but Prepare for the worst.
Verily, I feel confident as well as excited to showcase my prowess.
The three years away from home , three years of a new life have provided golden experiences to me.
Though I know that the circumstances or say the 'calamities' are not the same at every stage of life but what's important is each experience highlights one strength and weakness simultaneously.
The person who quickly grasps the demand of any complex situation that occurs in future and does not repeats his mistakes , overcomes his weakness and makes himself sturdier is the wise one.
As I always believe that when in a problem or a patch of trough in life , one should
not curse the self , should not blame the Gods , should not panic , there is no need to mourn but what the situation demands is serenity and nonchalance.

It is difficult to do so but practice makes a man perfect (and a woman too) and I have changed my outlook to problems by practicing over two years.

Well , now is the time to refresh and rejuvenate and prepare gameplans for the times ahead.
Also , I am very excited about the Japan tour next month. Lucky enough to hit at the right time to cement my spot in the 15 member team to Japan from our institute.
My parents are very happy and so am I because thats all what I desire the most - happiness of my loved ones.

So...
here I sign off for today , hoping to be regular now , but I request all that if by mistake anyone likes my postings then please follow my blog.
I always need encouragement and trust me I have many experiences and beliefs that I am sure you all will like to share.

God be With You !

Solid Defence - More Infliction

Hello Folks
getting over is another day of the year and coming tomorrow are another hopes...
And here we are back with some serious thinking business.
Today lets talk about life - surely life isn't serious but requires serious analysis.
I hope that all will agree that life is never the same always - just like a flowing river. It has crests and troughs , ups and downs.
What we need to do during the crests we need not talk about it...
we all wish that this time stays forever but the flow is turbulent , there are depressions so , during those we fight hard to gain the heights again or I should say we strive for the pursuit of happiness.
But lets talk about that particular , very special state , in general linguistics known as 'The Hardships'.

Well just think you get a job of $ 10k a month , how would you feel?
you will be happy , obviously you will be , you parents would feel proud of you , by seeing this - their happiness , again you will be more happy.
you will spend on things you have coveted for long.
you would probably get the latest sedan in the market or a thunder sonic bike , your status in the society will be lifted, and eventually people will be envious of you.
thats all or can be a thing or two more but that would only exaggerate your bliss.

well I can feel how elated you would be feeling right now after reading these lines but wait , lets dive a little deeper.

All the above mentioned phenomena is very common to you , to me and to everyone out there I suppose.
Now , I want to judge a person , his will power , his positivity , his persona , his mettle.
the question is can I?
How can I?
Everyone is happy for getting a job of $10k a month.

To solve our purpose lets try to frame a solution by pondering over the contrary side.
The Hardships.--------------
I work damn hard , with diligence and skill.
I give my full to every task I undertake.
I land up with no job or say a job of $100 a month which is far under what I deserve.

What I should do?
(Now be careful)
Have a look what Mr. A,B,C and S do...

Mr. A
I lose hope , I am depressed .I curse myself for being such an asinine.I feel indignation for god. I yell at back of my boss, my colleagues.
I keep normally now in a sulky mood.
I shout at everyone , there is no justice in this world.
To hell with everyone! To hell with this world! What a Fish !

Mr. B
Oh my god , I cant believe this . No this is impossible , I mean see him man , he does not has even 10 % of my potential and earns about 100 times that I do.
Disgusting!
Why I studied? Why I did not slept for nights and days?
Why , When everyone was having a carousal ,I was swimming in the books ? Why I was Supplicating to GOOGLE ?
Why?
There is no place for me in this world.
I am ruined .
Everything has finished.
SO , I QUIT!
BANG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

BREAKING NEWS : A XYZ GRADUATE , Mr. B , COMMITS SUICIDE .



Mr. C
Oh Man! this should not have happened.
Where I left any stone unturned ?
Well but now there is no point beating about the bush , so lets get on with what I have got.
If this is the result of working hard then its good not to.
So many problems I overcame.
So many hardships I suffered.
Still the consequence is this.
Perhaps I am not skillful enough.This is my destiny.


Mr. S
Whew! not a price which I deserve but nevertheless something is much better than nothing. Its good that I would gain some experience while I can make more plans for a bright future and lets get to know the firm , who knows there can be a growth potential that I can explore take the organisation to heights.
Lets show them what I have got in bags for them and I will also get to apply my knowledge and explore the real world difficulties so that I can be careful in future.
I have worked hard and hard work pays , though a little late sometimes but it does pays.
I got to be patient and look for the doors of opportunities.
Lets get ready!


So folks !
Were you able to see the difference?
Were you able to make any judgments?
Which one you would like to be?

Well any one you choose but the point I wanted to make clear I suppose I have done justice.
It is the tough times in which a man is tested , same applies for a woman also!
Moreover, there is one more observation I would like to share.

You study i class V
you give the examination and are promoted to class VI.
now again in the final examination I give you class V paper.
What happens?
A fish for you!
but you did not got the chance to practice the things you learned in standard VI.
Now if go on giving you a class V paper every year would you learn anything ?
you would become pampered and unaware of the parlous difficulties that exist in the world.

Now, try to think on parallel lines...
If you overcome a hardship , a suffering you are made stronger , you learn how to handle pressure situations.
You become perspicacious.
Thus , you unlock the next level of problems , difficulties , hardships in your life.
You master them also and then again the higher level is reached.
The loop goes on - "STRONGER YOUR DEFENCE , YOUR RESISTANCE BECOMES , MORE SUFFERINGS TURN YOUR WAY"

The key is not to lose hope but to hit hard in face of every difficulty , to implement what you have learned at every level.
But then how I become happy?

You are happy at every level itself because you achieve something on passing a level.
Aren't you happy on being promoted to class X.
the degree of happiness or say the result in our example depend upon how hard you hit the boulder.
How well you handle pressure , how you maintain you cool , how much positive you are.

With great Defence comes great pains but also great achievements.
So that at last , in life , the higher the levels you have unlocked , the more you have achieved.

The whole world remembers you forever.
Your name becomes immortal.
You appear as an inspiration in millions of textbooks worldwide.
This is eternal glory.

So never be frustrated that your sufferings and hardships are going on incessantly.
but try to focus on the other side , your achievements , be proud for them , be happy to get them.

Life has two parts - one to be lived , enjoyed with your loved ones and the other to be dealt with valor and mettle.
Learn to be resilient.

I hope reading this would have motivated you.
It does the trick for me.

Do not fear , Only be Lively!

Life is not that serious...

Truly Life is not to be lived seriously otherwise we do not call that person full of life any more.
From my previous postings some would have thought of me belonging to the philosopher's coterie but it isn't true , I am no sophist.
Its just that sometimes I do like to wonder about such things , which I thoroughly enjoy also.
Nevertheless lets talk about some fun today , about me
Very explicitly , I'm Siddharth Saxena , currently persuing B.Tech CSE from IIIT - Jabalpur.
Aspiring for MBA this year.
Born in Kota , subsequently brought up in Bhiwani and now since last 5 years - a Delhite.
that doesn't even constitute for the appellation itself but will for suffice for the moment.
May be I would share the whole story someday via my auto biography....
Well today I took perhaps the fastest ride on bike.
A friend going to IITK left I card in the hostel itself.
Train was to leave at 8:30
We started at 8:20 and reached at 8:29 covering a stretch of about 12 km.
Thrilling ride it was and I was just able to complete the job.
Thank God.
As the End semesters are approaching near the pressure has started building.
Weather is festive.
The air is all about some sweet Quizzes , delicious assignments , mouth watering presentations and the ever lasting beautiful projects.
Its amazing how I have used the Synonym - Antonym combo to impart beauty to the above lines.

" A man is not known from what he is beneath
but from the deeds he does."

Any guesses....
No they are not from one of my philosophical thoughts but these are the moving lines in the "Batman Begins".
Christian Bale was prowess and the platitude of Katie Holmes was unparalleled.
Another good Fantasy archetype...
Today there is an unusual calm in the air...
May be its the silence before the upcoming storm or
I would rather go with this one..
"the cessation of perpetual staccatos from the lectures by our Professors"
well
I am feeling much peaceful right now and hope that this calm continues though I am geared up for the upcoming battle.

Har Har Mahadev !

The Dark Light

The dark light - a great irony in itself but it is an inevitable truth of this world.
Good and Evil , Bliss and Sufferings , Zeus and Hades all go hand in hand , they are complementary.
It depends solemnly on the human mind which side of the coin he gets to his destiny.
It may not be possible for anyone on the scientifically and mathematically surging Earth to efficaciously turn the outcome of a coin toss in one's favor but on the Earth of wisdom it depends only on human perception and decisions to choose any one side of the coin.
The Buddha is our integral self and so is the Devil.
From long saints have followed the path to achieve salvation. what they do?
what enlightenment do they achieve?
They learn control over their inner devil.
They increase the strength of the Buddha in them.
In our hard times very easily we do play the blame game.
Instead of calming ourselves , rectifying our mistakes and boosting the saintly forces in us we become destitute of hopes.
We fail to notice the Sunrise and just coming so far near the light source we loose the battle and succumb to evils of depression , bad luck and misfortune.
Luck is nothing more than the meter of one's positivity - the more optimistic I am the more lucky am I.
It requires great alacrity to strive perpetually on the thoughts of optimism but it does pays in the end by reducing the sufferings and imparting a practicality to our attitudes.
Yesterday , I went to the roof of my hostel to welcome him - The God of light
The Sun
The cool morning breeze brushed my body , removing the heat of sorrows and negative energy, tranquilizing my mind.
I could feel my every integral atom finding solace , sanguineness.
The twilight laid the red carpet for him and then in a few moments over the horizon i could see glowing rays scattering from the epicenter as if racing , competing from one another to sweep out the darkness as swift as possible.
and then the chariot arrived , he gave 'Darshan'.
swiftly his gleaming forehead started escalating the heights from under the deep blue oceans.
I was ineffable.
My mind achieved the bliss and my heart was rejoicing.
I was healed.My sins washed away in light and with new hopes , stronger hopes I started my day.
A half an hour in the morning to welcome the Light God fills cheerfulness in our whole day.
One who is blessed by him doesn't fears from the night instead the hope that the new Light brings everyday provides an impetus to a self.
I am sure every single being after experiencing this light will rejoice as much.
Taking the closing stance I would suggest the homosapien to trust in wisdom of soul , wisdom of hopes and keep fighting the battle with dark with great valor and mettle.
Now or later the darkness will succumb.

Siddhartha

The Journey Starts

Yes , the journey has already started to find the Siddh Artha of myself but from today I will keep up with words also.
I frankly abhor this part as I have always believed that one's fervent emotions and knowledgable enlightments cannot take the form of words in its pristine form.
However , I will try to do full justice to this act.

As the world knows me by this name so it becomes my foremost duty to find the essence "the Artha" of my existence.
Though these will appear to be the thoughts of a sophist , which they are , there is an eerie twist in my tale.
Where most of the people follow austereity and give up the corporeal pleasures of this world , in my journey I will find myself alongwith living this material life also.
I have no other option also.
A middle class boy cannot expect to renounce everything to follow this path.
I have people to care about , I have dreams to live upon.

So today begins a strange voyage of mine to discover the Siddhartha in me parallel to fulfilling all the worldly responsibilities.

I will share my experiences - the spiritual ones , the corporeal ones , the emotional ones so that if ever a restless soul takes the road to find certain answers then the words of light can help to serve the purpose.

Enlightment cannot be achieved by means of teaching or passing the knowledge.
It resides in us , in our soul , and the means of acheiving it is introspection.

With these closing words I let go off my mind to dive again in those real world issues to think upon.